oh my. somebody save me!! my head is bursting!! ARGHHHH. HELP ME HELP ME!! i'm so drained. =( =( =( =( =( =( =( =( =( =( =( =( =( =( =( =( =( =( =( =( =( =( =( =(

cooked today. and i'm loving it. loving him. =)

i'm so hungry. and it's making me mad. no food no nothing. ahh whatever. nothing belongs to me anyway. maybe it's better this way.

you never knew how i really feel. you dont, you wont and you never will.

i just cant take the stress anymore. and it's making me mad, crazy, pissed, irritated. GRRRRRRRR.

i want a hug. just a hug...

love hurts. if love dont hurt, then it's not love. how true ehh?? haha. i love dancing queen~

haiz haiz haiz.

i feel so fucked up. within half a year, my laptop has been infected with some bloody virus from the sch. and i was so pissed when i went to the help desk and that bastard say it's your personal pc, there's nothing they can do. i scolded him fuck you and went off. i was so pissed that i cried. first, because i've planned to do itipj but cause of the fucking virus that i have to solve i cant do it. secondly, i'm so tied down by the damn schedule. it's like bloody pack lah. and as a help desk assistant, if you refuse to help students, then wtf we pay the school fees for you bloody pay when you dont do you job?? ARGHHHH. so pissed lah. now my laptop is like lagging like dont know what.

quarrelled with him. fuck.

showed that bitch leefy my project and damn fuck. she say what i do is all wrong. asshole lah. if you're so deprived of love then jolly well find someone to shower you with all the love. dont come picking on us lah. i feel so lost nowlah. after hearing what she say, all my effort is like gone down to waste. how on earth do you expect me to finish my part within 1 week? fuck man. at first you say cannot do shopping cart. if not it will be like the ecpj project. but now?! you say it should be like a shopping cart?!!! wth!!

i so feel like crying. so lost. so sick. i think i'm dying from the cold. literally..... haiz.

just wanan relax abit. on 17th, while i was on the train to sch, this sec3 boy (i assume) came and sit right beside me. soon after, he started staring at the notes i've written. so my normal reaction was to look over and see who's looking over. then he smiled at me. haha. cute lah. then he tried to figure out what my notes was all about. he keep reading till he was bored and he decided to play with his psp instead. haha. such a happy incident. it's not as if everytime you take a train someone will smile at you. got it? =)

OMFG. I DONT KNOW HOW TO START ON THE XML ASSIGNMENT. FUCK. BLEH. SO STRESSED UP. IB PARTIALLY DONE ONLY. MR SENT TO FIONA LE. BUT SEEMS LIKE SHE'S NOT REALLY SATISFIED WITH MY WORK. AHHH. GOD HELP ME. I'M SO LIKE GONNA DIE OFF IN ANY MOMENT. MY EYES ARE STILL SORE FROM INFECTION. GRRRR.

watching hana kimi. so funny lah. then suddenly i recalled how he caught me the other time. and the time i caught him. haha. those expression. so funny. tsk tsk.

caught fei just now. first time she so guai sia. anyway mochi tried to attack her lah. fei ran out then we caught mochi and she begin her tantrum. tat nuthead lah. haha.

i had projects!! so frustrating. i dont know how to do itipj too!! fuck sia. bleh.

i miss my fat fat. =(

='( haiz. this is what i'm feeling now. fuck.

so overwhelmed by everything single thing. i wanna complain everything to you. tell you how i'm feeling right now. vent out all my anger. i wanna bite you. i wanna cry my eyes out. cry in front of you. i wanna do so much things. so much things that i'm feeling right now. but do you even know... so who can i turn to now? i wish you were here with me. but you aint. and you never will......

oh ya, just to brighten up my blog.
















haha, this is after 19months being together. tsk tsk. so long liao. but would we even last?! haha. that's for me to know, and for you to find out. =)

* i'll be there for you, this five words i promise you... *

that's when.......











i love you.....

this will be my 365th entry. wow. so many entries in one and a half year. woo.

anyway i'm having a damn ulcer lah. and worst it's companied by some gums bleeding. ahhh!!1 irritating.

i'm having my ftt tomorrow. hopefully i'll pass lah. but doubt so cause i simply dont have time to study for it. wanted to postpone it but i was too late. AHHHH! how irritating can it be right? arghhhh.

went to study abit at kfc. haha. fuck those guys lah. CANT YOU SEE IT'S NYP LECTURE NOTES? still happily saying we were studying for o levels. go screw yourself lah. pure dumb lah. pissed sis and me off only.

we ate otah. and there came some flies flying in to attack our otah. and they called in their friend!! some mosquito looking creature which keep flying near us. haha. irritating.

hurray~ i meeting my fat fat for dinner later. i wanna eat him up. tsk tsk. ciaos~ i'm happy!!! =D

haha. i lost my tag box once again. so once again, a new one. haha. but think i'll lose it aagain cause i doubt anyone would be tagging. haha.

finished my crm script. hopefully its good. haha.

itipj. sucks man. i'm like so dead lah. and i cant cancel my ftt. so stress ar!!!! =( i miss my fat fat. *sobs*

it's been long since i've really updated my blog.

firstly, if fiona, you're reading my blog, just to say my msn nick doesnt refer to you. it's my friend. bitch doesnt necessarily refer to a girl lah duhhh.

secondly, i would like to scold something called relatives. a big fuck to you people. stop acting like you're really so nice when you're aint. example when my sis tried to borrow 2k from you guys for her sch fees and you start doubting our character. fod god's sake why in the world would we wanna borrow money from you if we've got excess?! think lah. no brain ar? fuck up man.

thirdly, fuck leefy lah. asshole lor. what cannot write each individual. then write done by all also wrong. bitch lah. then say 'aiya, not important one never mind' WTH! NOT IMPORTANT THEN STILL WANNA COMPLAIN SO MUCH. FUCK LAH. THINK I TOO MUCH TIME TO SPARE HUH? BITCH!

i'm so stressed out by everything. m phone is giving me probs again. ppl can call through, and i can only receive their msges after switching itoff and then on again.

the pass few days were great. had a lovely 10th. loved it. loving you always my darling.

didnt sleep the whole night. i feel like dying. my eyes hurt. arghh. this is so irritating. so much stuffs dued next week. ahhh. die.

两只恋人
演唱：曹格

傻傻两个人 许过一个愿
当时星星眨著眼 看起来并不远

为你长翅飞 为你被风吹
请你千万要等我
带幸福来给你的那一天

春天散步夏天看海秋天数落叶
一直没有烦恼
一直没有争吵
让 每天像糖一样甜

冬天飘雪我是棉被温暖你的夜
一直在你身边
一直爱到永远
你 就负责靠著我的肩

贴著你的脸 拍一张照片
世界是很复杂的 要靠我近一点

但愿你每天 幸福又安全
两只恋人手牵手
谁也不用再跑给谁去追

jinxian is a fucking bitch lah. ask him do survey then immediately say no then offline. awhile then come back again. fuck lah. act so nice when you need someone to talk. BIG FUCK.

两只恋人 is such a nice song lah. http://www.playyy.com/play/139113.htm

i miss my bf terribly. had such nice times when i'm with him. i love my pig pig.

no matter how you treat me, i'll still wait for you. get it? anyway cunsheng say we got xxxxxx. haha. ask me.

i love it when you complain to me like a kid. you're just so cute. ILOVEYOU!!

fell in love all over again. =)

firstly, one important to say. I WON JIANYUAN IN POOL cause he cant concentrate anymore. and secondly, I WON ZHENGLONG IN DAYTONA. wahaha. first times. woohoo~

i'm so tired lah. i slept at 7 in the morning cause i simply cant sleep. irriating. had a damn nightmare just right after i've fallen asleep. haha.

talk about celebrities today. 'ehhh, who you wanna marry if you can choose?' i want GARY!! tsk tsk. xinmei wanted him too but i said first. tsk tsk. at first wanted xiao zhu one but changed my mind. gary is just so sweeeeet lah. hehs. but i'm still realistic. i want raymond lim. =D

my phone has some fucking problems now. so please sms me if you cant call through. thank you very much. =)

WHERE'S MY DUMB DUMB?! BLEHS!!!!!!

niahahaks. the failed pot of curry tasted better after a long time simmering. haha. sis prefered the so-called failed pot. wahahah. =)

school's starting and i'm so bored lah. i cant sleep. boo!!!! ahhhh~!!! arghhhHH.

oh ya, forgot. watch carmen the hip hopera. nice. you can really see to what extend people will do for love and their dreams.

i cant sleep. i can sleep. i cant sleep. i can sleep. i cant sleep. i can sleep. i cant sleep. i can sleep. i cant sleep. i can sleep. i cant sleep. i can sleep. i cant sleep. i can sleep. i cant sleep. i can sleep. i cant sleep. i can sleep. i cant sleep. i can sleep. i cant sleep. i can sleep. i cant sleep. i can sleep. i cant sleep. i can sleep. i cant sleep. i can sleep. i cant sleep. i can sleep. i cant sleep. i can sleep. i cant sleep. i can sleep. i cant sleep. i can sleep. i cant sleep. i can sleep. i cant sleep. i can sleep. i cant sleep. i can sleep.............

BAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

AND DAMN ANGELFIRE FAILED ON ME!!! I CANT UPLOAD MY DAMN RESUME LAH. GRRRRR...

cooked curry~ haha. two pots but one failed lah. damn suck one lah. so people, next time dont ever buy those curry powder cause it seriously suck lah. it's those indian taste lor. OMFG!! haha.

my fat pig slept over. we bought wine. 6% alcohol. haha. play some games and the one who lost have to drink. so my poor piggy finish almost 3/4 of the bottle. LOL. i know he just didnt want to let me get drunk. haha. such a nice bf right? tsk tsk. his face turned red after drinking. muahaha. so funny lah. =P then we went to sleep cause it was so late. so he looked like a roasted pig. HAHA. oops. tsk tsk.

oh ya. i think his mom is crazy. i'm like still 18+ only then you never even talk about marriage then you wanna talk about the kids i'm going to have? CRAZY lah. still say what must eat more then better to have kids blah blah blah. this is crazy yet funny. haha.

i love my fat fat pig. hehs. =D

oh my. i missed the fireworks at esplanade again this year. =( disappointing but lucky i got back home in time to watch the live telecast on channel news asia. HURRAY~ CNA is the best channel you can ever have. haha. the fireworks aint as spectacular as i thought it would be. i still love some parts of it though.

i asked bf to sleep over my house cause i knew he had a bad day. so i had to wait for him come before we went to bed. and noon time, i've to wake him up to go for work. how nice a gf am i. tsk tsk. =)

met scott after doing my resume. and it sucks lah. dont even know how to start off and dont know whether the way i did it is correct. anyway we went to causeway point to have dinner. that was my first meal of my day!! i was starving then. so am i now. haha. ate the korean food and damn, the salad fis was like %^&*(&^%$. ehhh, not as good as it looks on the menu. haha.

went to the arcade after eating. wanted to play daytona. but there was a super long queue at the counter. and they were closing soon so we went off. took the train and we saw LIM CHEW SEAH! how small can the world be lah. same cabin, plus directly beside us. HAHA. he bought 2 cokes because he say 2 was for 2bucks and 2 packets of lakerol cause it's 2 for 2plus. so funny lah. he alighted at semb to meet his friends while we went to city hall. at newton or orchard, this bunch of kids came in. okay not really kids lah. maybe 15-16year old boys. super noisy lah. when they talk, we could only hear 'next station *&*^%$^%&(*'. which means we completely cant hear anything other than the two words lah. and they alighted the same stop as us. haha. irritating.

the station was superly crowded. there's like so many staffs shouting move here and there etc. it's really ren san ren hai lor. cant imagine if a kid go missing lor. we walked through raffles city. the toilet was flooded with ppl. so being smart, we went to the next level toilet. haha. after that, we proceeded to esplanade and dad called. so ya, i've to head back home cause he lost his keys somehow. then off we go. back to the train station and towards home. being bored, he played with his gprs. haha. bo liao lah. waste money. and best is he downloaded all the free stuffs. haha. sorry scott!!! go out next time. =)

oh ya, there was this china girl sitting in front of us. she actually took of his footwear and put her legs on the friend/mom whoever that is lah. omg lor. and we also saw some people doing some embarrassing stuffs out there. irriating lah.

and last thing to say....










I FUCKING HATE CHEENA PEOPLE LAH. CANNOT WAIT HUH. MUST SQUEEZE THROUGH. BITCH LAH. KNOCK INTO ME SOMEMORE. FUN AR? DUHHHH. IT'S NOT AS IF YOU WAIT AWHILE WILL DIE RIGHT? CANT YOU SEE THERE'S LIKE SO DAMN MANY PEOPLE AROUND?!?! BITCH!!!!! KIASU SIAK.





aites, end of post. have a very happy happy new year~ =D